I was blown away with their performance again.
It was amazing, how do you hit such high notes?
now this is what you call singers.
I love my boys :)

I finally got to watch Jaurim new MV "Carnival Amour"
It's totally different from their previous MV's.
Yunah can change her voice when she sings :)
Why does Yunah still looks so young, I like the MV.
It was so cute and fun circus like.
I know most of the Jaurim fans find the new album so not like the old Jaurim
but artist music do changes, It's like their growing up.
At least it didn't completely change to no Hip hop ? that would have been
a bigger dramatic Change.
I say they still sound the same but they added new Flavor into their music.
I wish they collab with Drunken Tiger again :D
I miss Loving Memory.

Theres fresh melon in the fridge, It's so sweet , oh and we brought lots of watermelon.
It sucks when someone remind you that your gonna die .
Who cares?

Im tired of being this good friend who always have my friends back.
when in the end nobody has my back or even stand up for me.
but whatever you know, its okay.
I can stand up for myself.
I dont really need anybody support .
but what i hate the most is when someone makes me feel stupid and let me ramble on and on.
Next time when someone say shit about me, Just don't tell me.
I dont feel like caring anymore.
Let them talk all their shit.
but if they talk shit about you, maybe I'll stand up for you because thats the person I am?
but let me change myself a little bit now, I wont even bother to give a shit anymore.
its like if you respect somebody you get respected back <=--- a bunch of bullshit.
I get shit back really, but just a feeling of stupidity .

Yes I am a huge Jaeho Fan, but haha nobody really knows ^_^
everyone think it's yoosu for me. ANK ANK! you lose.
Jaeho FTW!

some old Graphic i did a long time ago. haha







Jaejoong

okay Lately I been back into the japanese world. hahah
I blame uhh maybe Linh? haha
I mean wow Hiro, I love him!! He's so awesome!
Okay im currently watching Hana Kimi and Shun oh gahh he's so hot!
Hiro is AHAHAH playaaaaaaaaa . I love his character.
the rest of the boys are so kawaii too.
Also watching Gokusen 3. AAAAAWWWWWWW~ Haruma is so kawaii! I can't get over hot awesome he is. HAAH I love his character. man he is soo amazing!!

WOO! next week I get to see Rachel, Sarah and Kirra.
I'll be staying at the Wilshire Hotel in L.A with them.
Rachel is driving from Texas. HAHAAH cause her passport expire, what a loser.
She'll be sleeping over at my house and then on the 15th We're going to pick Sarah and Kirra up from the airport and check in the hotel.
Im staying till the 18th.
Hollywood Bowl is going to be so awesome man.
DBSK HERE I COME!!

the four of us are going to do so much stuff!
and we're planning to meet with Rheena and Cat and the rest of the gang at HB.
man still can';t believbe I'll be seeing DBSK next saturday.
My heart is beating faster. hahaha

YOOCHUNNNNNN AH~

This morning while my sister left to school, I heard everything my mom said. She told my sister I was lower than a dog and then shes like asking my sister do you see her as a role model. Don't ever be like her.
and I was still sleeping but i heard it.  my mom is also  mad at me cause my grades are really low and then I heard her talk to my dad since our room is like connected so I heard everything she says about me. I know im not my mom favorite kid, I was never her favorite.
She then tells my dad that I probably don't even go to school , and Im wasting my life away. I started to cry and just cover my blanket over me like i always do when i cry. I hate her,I do go to school! i always go to class but im not smart enough to get good grade. My mom know im not the smartest either, she tell me out of everybody im the dumbest one but at least i try. But I guess it's not good enough for her anymore. When she comes home shes always mad at me and blame everything at me. Last nigh she got mad and told me without her around how will I live. I'll probably be homless and i'll have nothing to eat and I dont know why she always aim it towards me. then she say I never do anything. That hurts me the most because I do the most chores. cause my brother and sister never want to do those stuff so I end up taking out the trash, cleaning the dishes, doing the laundry, taking care of my dad when he needs something. My sister is a fucking lazy ass. When I was even younger than her, my mom makes me do alot around the house and now shes almost a senior in high school and my mom never ask her to do anything cause shes afraid my sister will get mad. That's just stupid and unfair. and I hate how my mom is scare to make my brother mad too. Sometime she gives my sister money just to do the laundry. thats the stupidest shit ever. and once in a blue moon my sister take out the trash and she gets money for that too!!!!!
I guess growing up, Im always acting happy and dont care what people say about me. so nobody is scare to offend me in any way.
I still remember my cousin birthday years ago when I was probably in Elementary still. My  dad cousin was making fun of me saying im fat or something and I just pretend to smile like I didnt mind if they made fun of me. But actually I do care , and the she tells her daughter jackie, you should be more like suho , see she doesnt get mad when people make fun of her. so all my dad cousin always say shit about me. Even his aunt treats me like shit and when we live next to each other, she always call me to help her pull out the grass near the sugarcane tree. She never ask her own granddaughter to do it. and I can;t say hell no i dont wanna do it, because thats disrepectful to my elders. My dad aunt always tell me im just like my mom, them "village" people. then shes like telling me I better study hard and dont be "low class" or something like my mom. I hate my dad side of the family their always looking down on my mom. and I do get mad at them for talking about my mom. When i do tell my mom she aim it back at me and say WHY WONT YOU STUDY so your dad side don't look down on us.  That just makes me feel sad. I dont cry in front of my family cause they will just make fun of me and say some bad shit. They will probably even laugh if they see me cry. Cause Im always the loud happy one in the family.
Some nights when i think about my life, I always cry with the blanket over me. Im just mad cause my mom treats me the worse. I thought i used to have my dad who love me the most. But he really loves my little sister the most.
My mom say dont eat her food, so im not going to eat anything she cook anymore. Im just gonna buy me my box of cup noodles.
she might think im acting silly but shes the one who said it that i just wait to eat her food. She dont even know how school is.
She doesnt knwo that every morning i sit in the cold bench for 3 hours or so doing my hw or something. cause class starts at 10:30 and i go at the same time my sister go to school cause I dont want my brother to drive back and foward to pick me up and drop me off at school. and on wednesday even my brother come back home early i dont ask him to take me to school, I told her I'll walk to school.
and once when I came back home at 4 she got mad even when i told her i had to stay after school to do some lab assignment.
she just doesnt understand. and she told me I was hard headed and acting rebellious against her now. She was asking me when did I became like this and I never listen to her . wow she makes me made. Its enough my dad gets mad at me for stupid shit too, just putting his fucking chinese series dvd in for him, and i put in a wrong one and he gets fucking mad at me. stupid shit.

I feel happy that Jean and Virginia just called me ,  because it mean they didn't forget about me. haha
School start today but I only have school on Tuesday & Thursday.
I feel depress sometime about school. It's like im going to college but i am actually going nowhere.
All my grades are bad, i havent even got 1 C during all the time in college and I just take all these classes that is probably not even require. I feel like my life is a mess right now. I rather dropp out than waste time but what will I be doing? nothing..
I hate real life and it's so hard. I don't really like living in America.
I've been thinking about all the family problem and stuff is because we are living in america, or maybe i am just thinking to much into it.
Okay i am probably thinking too much into it and putting america to blame. haha sounds funny.

but yeahh I have nothing going on for me, I'm spending to much time going nowhere.
I am just living day by day . What am i doing ?

omo I came home this morning and I have so much Mail. HAHA
and my Secret Santa Stephanie is love. She got me so much stuff, I almost died. hahah
DBSK POSTER/ HUGE CALENDER [i didnt even know they had these, I was shock] / DBSK GIFT BAG/ DBSK BOOKMARK/ HELLO KITTY WALLET [haha shes too cute] / A Mini DBSK POSTER/

and I got a Xmas Card from Christine and OMO rachel. HAhAha her birthday Card to minhwan cracks me up so much. Its a CHicken card that plays music.
gah Im so disappointed in some people who are sending in their stuff late to me because now I hate to Mail in the late Project to FNC Music Company.
I wanted the boys to recieve everything before Christmas.
but i guess its okay..

I am going to Vegas again like every year..

YAY! Adlin brought me a Pentastick. LMAO
now I can wave it around while watching F.T Island perform.
HAHAH shit I need a life.
but wahah <333

OTL > Crying on their knee. hahah does OTL looks like someone is kneeling down?
I kind of see it.

yeppie! F.T Island won New Singer Award @ 2007 Golden Disk Awards!
I am so happy for them, aww my boys! So young, so talented. Darn Minhwannie has so much eyeliner on. He looked like a little girl and Wonbin hair is so ugly and Jaejin has his nerdy look back but he looks so much older. kyaaaaaaaa my boys are still cute :)
Hongki looks pretty nice and Jonghun handsome as always.

Sarah is uploading their Performance for me. yay!

I got my Xmas Card from Kelly yesterday. wahah I was so happy again :)
The Minhwan Photos are so cute!! Thank you Kelly for your very MBC message! gees your so MBC!!!!!!!!!! HAHA
but I love you !

yeah So i am going to try to update my LJ like i used to before.
Damn Linh, Hurry up with your Jaejin Crab Set, STOP SLACKING! HAHAH
Yes I am doing a Graphic Battle with Linh and our 1st round is Crab. LMAO, we also have a PEDO ROUND. haha
okay my set is the cutest :D

We finish our RADIO HOUSE COMEBACK SPECIAL!
woo hoo!

Radio House is a Radio Show Hosted by me [DJ Umma] , Rachel [DJ Chel] , Kelly [DJ Pri] , Linh [DJ sunshine aka Dj Perv ] haha
anyways we talk about F.T Island and Have Discussion about F.T Island and we play Korean Songs & we do Shoutout too.
and we always have News on F.T Island.
We also have special guest & Listener . & sometime we do request, like what song our listener want us to sing. HAHA
It's fun & funny.

anyways here's our RADIO HOUSE COMEBACK SPECIAL if anybody wanna download and listen:
http://www.mediafire.com/?bgmmzxjxm2l
my voice sound weird. lmao [Thank you Sarah for recording our Live show ]


Why is it that some people can be so open about their personal life.
If something like that happened to me, I would never tell anyone, even if it's someone I know that i will never meet in person.
haha seriously. But I hope you do feel better and get discharge soon :)

So I asked my Staff how they would feel if I stepped down as Admin and These are the response:

Kelly: Dalis & Char are the BEST ADMINS EVERRR!!!!!
DALIS WILL NEVER STEP DOWN [I won't let her] <33

Sarah: I think it'd be weird, but you'd most likely still be around so it'd be like, "Oh Dalis isn't admin anymore? Okay. .___. DALIS DO RADIO HOUSE NOW!"

Gabbie: And Dalis...you're not allowed to step down.
I won't let you either.

Carmen: UMMA&APPA FOREVERR!

Linh: ummmmm......
i'd feel like something is seriously missing without dalis as admin?
why?
what's going on?

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hahah their too sweet.
I made lots of great friends this year.
Rachel is coming to California for Hollywood Bowl next year :D
Can;t wait to hang out with Rachel. & for sure we'll meet up with Jina & Gabbie. AND HOPEFULLY freaking Linh mom let her go!
dude everytime Linh call me , my internet stop. HAHAHA damn Linh! I CUSS YOU! I CUSS YOU! lol

Yoon Gyeong is so sweet, I Love her. She got me Dbsk sticker, Keychain, Cassopeia Stickers, Boa Sticker, Dbsk Photos.
haha and now shes sending me Magazine from Korea. <333333333
I think I'll get her Shinhwa winter album or whatever, or anything Shinhwa.

Okay I love : ♥Kelly:Char:Luis:Linh:Rachel:Sarah:Ankie:Gabbie:Adlin:Meghan:Carmen:Jina:Kim:
:Angeli:Kate:Habison:Lollo:Kirra:Cammy:Po:Lyn:Poppy :Lovefti Family!♥

DUDE WE HAVE OVER 3000 MEMBER! WE'RE SO CLOSE TO 4000 member. CRAZY YO!

Waah i havent post for the longest. too lazy i guess.
this semester is okay so far, I am not going to drop any of my classes. My teachers are nice & the class isn't all that hard. And the good thing is that the books this semester aren't that expensive but fucking math book was 150 bucks.  nigga im broke!
but i like my classes, not that much Homework.
Man Film class is the easiest but i hate how chinara & her Bf is in that class too. on the first day, she got mad because she save a seat for me but i didnt go sit next to her. hAHHAA seriously i did not want too. then next class time in film, her & her BF came over to sit next to me and ehhh i dont like seeing couple acting all lovely dovey in front of my face, gross me out. hahah so yeah chinara keeps talking to me but i didnt want to talk, i just wanted to watch the freaking movie. so annoying. This week, her and bf didnt come to class so i was relieve. haha i tried to sit all the way on the back at the corner so she wont see me . hahaha im not mean. but they didnt even came to class. pahahaha . now shes all asking me what movie did we watch blah blah.. psshh..
and damn i saw Adrian but i pretended not to see him, he was talking to Gary. hahaha but lucky they didnt see me, or maybe they did? not sure. but adrian was right there! i dont know, i just dont want to talk to him anymore. I havent talk to any of the guys from Chink Island after graduation.  I think i've been thinking about Dbsk soo much because last night i dreamt that I saw them. hahah it felts so real.

I enter the audotourim [akk i cant spell] and i had a choice, either sit in the front row or the back row and i must not regret my choice either. and I choose the back row. then out of nowhere dbsk comes out and perform Magic Castle and i was the only one there excited and happy since nobody else knew who they were. hahah and then i ask the person there if i can go sit in the front row and they say sorry it's all full. and in my dream there was a friend with me, I dont know who he is though but in my dream i felt like he was my friend. anyways after dbsk finish performing they had to rush to the airport to go back to Korea. So that friend told me to get up so we can take a picture of them. We were searching for Dbsk everywhere. then i saw Jaejoong back and i told the friend in my dream "LOOK ITS JAEJOONG!!" and we try to walk over and out of nowhere the other 4 boys of dbsk walked right in front of us. and Yoochun smile while holding his bags. [aww dies in my dream lol] anyways I said Bye to them in english "Bye Yunho, bye yoochun, bye changmin, bye junsu" and Yunho said "BYE" back to me all loud smiling and i was so happy and the other 3 boys waved back at me. and it seems like changmin forgot something so he turns around and my friend was like take a picture, take a picture and i said "CHEESE" and changmin looked into my camera with a big smile [dies again in my dream hahaa]  i wanted to take more picture but my camera wasnt working anymore .
then i woke up and it was time for school damnt. hahah

The gay part in this dream was that I didn't get to see Jaejoong face, My camera suck, I have no clue who that friend in my dream is.
wow finally i have a dream with dbsk. haha

how lame, i wish this was REAL!!!

fuck i can't believe school is starting next monday. what in the world, why must this day come so soon. I wish i could wake up every morning and just spend time on the computer making graphic and downloading kdrama and watching dbsk clip on t.v

hahah

man now i gotta go to school and learn and do hw and study and look at stranger face. i hate it !
i just hate being in a classroom with stranger! & teacher who bugs you! i hate school. why do i have to go to school!
i rather be a homeless, i dont even fucking care about my life. so why would i care about going to school.
if only i have a choice which i don't.

mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn im try not to sleep because it will make my day longer. haha silly me.
i love complaining here because i can never do that in person. all my complaints are written down somewhere. lol

i need to find me some cheap books. boo i really dont want to go to school.

lately i've been having major headache. i have a headache right now actually. is it because i spend too many time on the computer screen? no it can't be because i used to spend longer hours on the computer . i think i know why.
i hate my mom. she said im not afraid of dying or something. shut the fuck up. i hate my life.
i hate how i feel like i exist for other to use me.

I feel all dizzy this morning and im still online. haha i hate myself.
So yeah This morning, Michelle came by, Molina and my other older cousin came by too, since their going to arizona to visit. My older brother and little sister left too and yepp I'm the one who have to stay behind. It's always like this, I'm always the one who have to watch my dad. It's not even fair. & i hate it when my mom fucking say I don't do anything here. Shes fucking trippen. I'm the only one here in the house that watch my dad and bring him food and pick up the phone .  & everytime he watches chinese series, I'm the one who get up and rewind the tape for him and put in the next tape in every time. Nobody know how hard my life is, & i have to keep my door room open 24/7 incase I dont hear my dad calling me from the Living room. & sometime it suck when i cant hear him and he gets mad and scold me . Stroke patience moods are always changing so the next thing he'll be happy again but then he's always mad. Yeah shit just feel like complaining for once . haha Complaining isn't my thing but fuck im so tired.
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Fuck i realize i have Film with Chinara. great, her ass is going to be talking nonstop. man i really dont want to talk to those kind of people. shes one of the people in my life that always talk about herself and making herself sound so spoil. feels like shes always rubbing in ppl face that shes rich or something. I'm so glad I dont have any class with Socheath, Last semester i was fucking tired of her talking about her Bf Derek. Derek this Derek that, and all their shitty Drama that i didnt give a shit about. WHY DO PPL ALWAYS HAVE PROBLEM IN THEIR LIFE! haha shit, I have problem too but i don't tell other people and bother them. I keep shit to myself. So sometime I seriously hate it when you tell me your problems. I mean if  your a person I like and care about, of course I'll care to listen to your problem. But if your one of the annoying bitches, GET A LIFE! im tired of hearing the same crap from you. I'm so glad I dont have much friends anymore. I admit sometime it feels lonely cause you got no one to talk to or whatever , but then again im so better off by myself. Plus i have My music :] DBSK <3 haha
I love them because I Do .

I was doing the practice test on the DMV site and i got it all right, TEST 1 & 2!!
i was just doing it again to see if i remember cause i feel like i dont. then i did the Flash Tutorial for the hell of it and I OWN THAT TOO! hahah seriously, i thought i didn't remember crap. Sometime the practice test doesn't really help me on the real written test. but it kind of help me improve. haha whatever. I better pass!
i dont know if im doing it today or maybe my brother will stall taking me again.
My little sister & cousin are doing it today. I wonder how they will do on it. I feel dumb when i don't go to school. haha seem like i forgot everything that i learned. It doesn't really stay in my head. haha that's the scary part. Mostly with NUMBERS! i have issue. :[

Wow im excited to get:
*F.T ISLAND ALBUM
*RED FLAT SHOES
*DBSK PLAYING CARD
*TACHYON AUTOGRAPH POSTER

YAY!

I feel so broke! before i didn't care about money but then lately, i always get sad when i see my bank account.
Yesterday this knock on my door and she wanted to win this scholarship and she has to go around to every house and ask for donation for this children thing. and I could also help out if i buy some magazine. It's really hard to say no to her, plus i wanted to help her out. So i brought nickelodeon magazines. haha 12 issue for 24 bucks. i don't even read . haha hopefully there's a Justin Choi picture in there somewhere cause i like him in JUST JORDAN. HAHAH the girl said i was the nicest one so far in the neighborhood cause some people was like no! go away or didn't even answer her. gees people.

MY BACK ACHE! i feel so old and tired. i can't really sleep that much anymore and i feel really depress. I don;t know why maybe because  my mom wants me to go on a diet. fuck that, i rather die. i dont care about how i look or how people see me. As long as i can be myself and be happy , im fine with that.

yay! just pre-ordered their album yesterday. so excited to get it.
I realize the money in my bank account is decreasing . haha WAAAAAAAAAAH i hate that. why do i order so many shit. I just brought me a shoes today at cutesyshoes.com HAHHA
fuck it said 6.99 cause it was on sale or some shit, then KABOOM! fuck shipping & handling. i choose the cheapest one which was $10.00. great it went from 6.99 to fucking 17.99. hahah i know that might not be a lot but to me it is!

oooooh and the green flat i brought from ebay, its size 9 and it's really big on me so i wore it like 3 times and i dont want to wear it again. I wanna sell that shit. it's cute too but its really big. ah fuck shoes, i should of wait till school is near, but i might order another shoes. the shoes i that i just brough is red and its so freaking cute. it's slip on and the top has red&white stripe. cute cute cute. fuck i hate wasting money.

Monday, im going to go take my written test and i better pass. My little sister & little cousin is going to get their permit HAHA i feel like a loser. it would be weird if they knew how to drive before me.

Man i seriously hate people sometime. Mostly the one who lives in america. HAHAH they think they know everything! INGORANT AMERICANS! or maybe im just to asian. haha whatever. Im glad im more "asian" lol.shit i wish i lived in Asia too. i dont know why but im always complaining about living in america now. haha there's just to many useless shit going on. Like NEWS are fucking useless. Who gives a shit about Paris Hilton. there's more important things in this world that they can talk about, why the fuck talk about paris hilton. American celebrity sucks! the only good thing is that they dont have anti-fans or some crazy ass fan . nobody really give a shit anymore.

Oh LENA CALLED ME TODAY & I LOVE HER! and i hate fonzo. HAHAHAHA why is my lena so sweet and fonzo is a loser. lol shhhhhh..

My summer so far has a lot to do with sitting in front of the computer, waking up in the afternoon, not combing my hair, hmm a lot of lazyness there .
Summer to me mean DOING SHIT! JUST CHILL & RELAX! but i got to admit, it's kind of boring.

Okay im not a soda person , but when i get my hand on a soda can, it taste so good. haha
but yeah like i said, I don't really drink soda, only my sister & brother drink soda. i swear they drink so much there's like cans everywhere in this damn house. i hate them. why can't they just drink juice or water. Soda isn't even good for you.

oh man how ghetto a mexican dude was going to get into a fight with 2 black dude outside. and the mexican dude had a longass knife. i was being noisy. HAHAHA the black dudes was like "FUCK DONKEYZ" haha
but then these other 2 mexican dude in the car came out and stop them and all you hear is "FUCK THIS, FUCK THAT, I AINT SCARE OF YOU, YOU BITCH, NIGGA WAHHHH"
okay you get my point. FUNNY HOW MY DAD WAS WATCHING FREEDOM WRITER OUTSIDE. haha

i hate long beach.

wow what the fuck is wrong with me. i just pop up out of nowhere and aim her. stupid stupid, she probably hate me for not talking to her . plus she has her own life now. she hates me, i have a feeling she hate me somehow. akwarding. but it just feel like im talking to an old friend.
i shoulda just left it alone and not do anything. my heart feel hurt like sungmin right now.

..

my history final was easy, we had answer sheet so whatever. i pass.
my teacher wayne is a cool man, he gives us candies and chips. we're his favorite student. haha